The Entrepreneurial Code - Lessons Learned from a Failed Ivy League Entrepreneur

As a 21-year old college student at Wharton, theto be willing to put checks and balances on my
business school of the University of Pennsylvania, Iactivities for the good of my company. That meant
embraced the ideals of entrepreneurship sobeing clear about my company's values, creating
whole-heartedly I started my own company. Mymore structure in my organization, and including
classmates and I managed the company for two andindependent directors on our Board. In short, I
a half years and it became our full time job afterneeded to take corporate governance a lot more
graduation. We wrote a business plan and believedseriously and make it just as important of a goal as
we had a unique concept, a strong managementmy quest for profits.
team, and a viable "business model."3. Outlook (or Attitude)
Unfortunately, despite some initial success, myAfter becoming an entrepreneur, I often compared
business eventually shut down. Our fate isn'tmy life with those of friends who accepted the
surprising when you consider the challenges faced bytypes of jobs I turned away. While I slept on the
entrepreneurs starting new companies. Like manyfloor of my office, ate the cheapest thing on the
entrepreneurs, we lost a lot of money invested bymenu, and was buried beneath a mountain of credit
friends and family. For two years, we lived in ourcard debt, my peers had apartments in the city,
offices, sleeping on the floors, working day and nightcorporate expense accounts, and were improving
with no personal lives. In the end it seemed as iftheir credentials in the job market. I began to fear
those sacrifices had been for nothing.my friends were developing better resumes than I
Lessons Learnedwas, while I worked twice as hard for a fraction of
I think the failure of my company can be attributedthe pay.
to inadequate leadership among its founders. AfterComparing myself to others created a lot of unrest,
years of reflection, I've asked myself to define whatbecause I was a competitive person and I didn't
being a "leader" means to me. My definition follows:want to feel like I was "falling behind." Although I
A Leader is someone with sound judgment, integrity,think it's natural for entrepreneurs to contend with
and a sense of responsibility for others. A leaderself-doubt, these emotions only impaired my
motivates others towards common goals, providesjudgment. They made me impatient, because I was
hope and inspiration in times of uncertainty, and helpsscared of "wasting" years of my life as an
the organization to adapt to an ever-changingentrepreneur, but never becoming "successful."
environment.After the initial excitement of writing a business plan
While some degree of technical competence isand setting up my company, I was almost depressed
necessary, these attributes mostly stem fromto be sitting in my small office handing out debit
increased self-awareness. It was Sun Tzu who said,cards to college students. I didn't really have an
"Know your enemy and yourself and you will win 100appreciation for the work. In my mind, I had earned
battles; know the enemy and not yourself and youmy degree from Wharton to become the manager
will lose every time." Unfortunately, as a first timeof a tiny debit card office, but I probably didn't need
entrepreneur, there was a lot about myself I didn'tto go to college to do that. It made me feel as if I
know. While a lack of self-knowledge isn't so unusualwasn't living up to my "potential." Therefore, I
for someone in his early twenties, it's a huge problemwanted to put my head down and focus on growing
for an entrepreneur.my business faster.
I have always found that a good acronym helps meIt sounds ridiculous, but a founder must train himself
to remember things. For example, "ROYGBIV" andto find meaning in his daily toils, not just in the dream
"Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally" have locked theof his future victory. Otherwise, he'll feel powerless
colors of the rainbow and the mathematical orders ofevery time the business takes an unexpected turn
operation into my brain since I was a high schooland leaves his prospects worse off than before. If a
student. As I was writing this manuscript, I wantedfounder feels that he is powerless and at the whim
to create another mnemonic to help me rememberof fate, his psyche can easily become easily
the mistakes I made so I don't repeat them in thedamaged by the emotional roller coaster of potential
future.failure and success. The stress can lead him to make
I have categorized these entrepreneurial mistakesbad decisions.
into five elements (the "E CODE"). These five areasExperiencing failure is an inevitable part of success.
are as follows:Therefore, an entrepreneur has to view adversity as
Egomaniaa necessary step that helps him to learn, to grow,
Corporate Governanceand to become a stronger leader. In that regard,
Outlook (or Attitude)challenges and struggles can be hidden blessings, not
Deeper Meaningcurses. Entrepreneurs need to observe someone like
EmptinessNelson Mandella, who survived many years of abuse
1. Egomaniaand imprisonment, but never allowed the situation or
As a college student, I heard stories how Michael Dellhis captors to break him. Rather, he used adversity
started his company from his college dorm room, andas a tool to transform himself and grow stronger.
how Bill Gates dropped out of Harvard to startThere are lots of stories of prisoners of war and
Microsoft, and how many of the wealthyconcentration camp victims who use their
benefactors of my university had beenexperiences to their advantage. As Warren Bennis
entrepreneurs. While I couldn't possibly know theand Robert Thomas noted in their book, Geeks
hardships and brushes with failure these men had, I& Geezers, leaders often use periods of
latched on to their larger than life images ofdifficulty as opportunities for reflection that allow
"success." After all, I wanted to believe I couldthem to look deeper into themselves and make
accomplish anything with my future. I wanted todiscoveries about their own character. It's ironic, but
believe in the unlimited potential of entrepreneurship.without moments of desperation, many leaders
In my mind's eye, these tales were all that camewould never have the opportunity to find their inner
close to meeting the "extraordinary expectations" Istrength.
had of life. I was convinced that entrepreneurshipBy looking at hardships as opportunities to conquer
was the single greatest wealth-building opportunity.ego, an entrepreneur can mitigate the emotional
At 21 years of age, I wanted to make my ownswings. As Carlos Castaneda observed with his
decisions, to be my own boss, and to have a financialconcept of the "petty tyrant," life is filled with lots of
stake in the outcome of my work. At the samepetty obstacles and challenges, so we might as well
time, I didn't want to spend 10 or 20 years slowlylearn to use them to our advantage and not allow
climbing the corporate ladder. By starting mythem to drag us down. In fact, obstacles and
business, growing it quickly, and selling it, I believed Ihardship can teach entrepreneurs to keep a sense of
could have my cake and eat it too.humor about their plight. It can teach founders to
It was Bill Walsh, former head coach of the Sanlaugh at life's surprises, both good and bad.
Francisco 49ers, who remarked that "ego" is aIn his book, Man's Search for Meaning, Victor Frankl
misused word in the United States. He said, "Wedescribes how life demands things from us, not the
Americans throw that around, using that one word toother way around. Therefore, we should condition
cover a broad spectrum of meanings: self-confidence,ourselves to find meaning in answering life's daily
self-assurance, and assertiveness... But there iscallings and use them as opportunities to live with
another side that can wreck a team...That is beingdignity and find meaning in every moment. Learning
distracted by your own importance... [It] ends upto enjoy the unpredictability of life can enable an
interfering with the real goal of any group ."entrepreneur to appreciate the path chosen rather
As a young entrepreneur, I considered it my right tothan stress about the uncertainties of future
serve my own self-interest. Since I was "taking theoutcomes.
risk," I believed I was entitled to the rewards.It was John Keats who said the most important
Therefore, I was very controlling about who Iattribute of a leader is the ability to be in
allowed to get involved in my business. Even if"uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable
recruiting a larger team added benefits, I sometimesreaching after fact and reason." I wish I had a better
hesitated. After all, I viewed it as "my company," sosense of humor when I was an entrepreneur. Not
I didn't want to share the upside with others unless itonly would I have had more fun, but I would have
was absolutely necessary. If I had checked my ego,been less likely to feel sorry for myself when my
I would have been more likely to recognize mycompany faced challenges. Instead of wasting my
limitations and concentrate on assembling the rightenergy worrying, I would have been poking fun at
team of people, even if it meant slowing thingsmy anxieties, strengthening my character, and living in
down.the present. This outlook would have kept me more
Unfortunately, my exorbitant expectations ofeven keeled and better able to make good decisions.
entrepreneurship were difficult to meet. Soon, I4. Deeper Meaning
became embarrassed to show people I worked in aIt was Benjamin Disraeli who said, "The secret of
small office with only a handful of employees. Isuccess is a constancy of purpose." I believe an
wanted to live up to my lofty ideal of a "realentrepreneur must choose a "cause" to which he's
entrepreneur." So, I rushed to rent larger officewilling to devote himself, even in the face of failure.
space and expand my business prematurely. WhenIt should be a broader purpose that's worth the fight
the image I had in my head failed to live up to reality,regardless of the outcome. After all, of the
I panicked. Why? Because I was far more excited toapproximately 1.8 million new businesses incorporated
chase a "rags to riches" fairy tale than I was toevery year in the United States, less than a few
hunker down and slowly build a business over a longthousand receive venture funding and a fraction of
period of time. I wanted results in a hurry, but itthose ever go public. Clearly, there are no guarantees
wasn't going to happen that way. It was time forof success, so a founder's reasons for choosing his
Peter Pan to grow up.journey have to be about more than the allure of
At the end of the day, an entrepreneur has thefinancial gains.
responsibility of stewarding his company and its manyIn fact, there is so much volatility embedded in
stakeholders, not just himself. There's no room forentrepreneurship that it can be difficult for founders
large egos, because they lead to bad decisions.to stay motivated by the prospects of riches. Too
Entrepreneurship is not so different from otheroften the company will be in peril and the founder will
career paths as many of us would like to believe. Itbe forced to reinvent aspects of the business. If the
still takes many years to build a reputation and aentrepreneur is only motivated by financial success,
strong client base. It still requires the founder to startthen he'll probably lack the necessary staying power.
at the bottom. If anything, it's less glamorous,In fact, most new ventures would probably never
because there are fewer people around to help and aget started if a founder's motivations were based
lot less resources at our disposal.purely on the risk-adjusted economic merits of the
2. Corporate Governanceproject.
My partners and I had little corporate governanceAt the end of the day, I believe the motivation to
and no written policies or procedures. Oftentimes, wepursue a business has to come from a genuine
lacked the independent perspective necessary tocommitment to serving a cause that's bigger than
critically evaluate our thinking. "GroupThink" wasourselves. There has to be a responsibility we feel to
rampant, whereby everyone was entranced by theserve others in a certain way. From my experiences
same views, so no one was thinking independently.I learned that even the best business plan can
Although we didn't think we needed advice, mybecome a burden if you don't believe in what you
company would have benefited from includingare doing. Our motivation can't just be about
independent directors on our Board. It would'vebenefiting ourselves, because when the company's
forced us to share our assumptions with outsideprospects diminish, most of us will be inclined to quit
professionals. Inevitably, we would've had to test ourand do something else.
theories, identify potential risks, and slow down ourHistory is filled with tales of people risking their lives
growth plans. At the very least, independentfor causes in which they believe. By comparison, very
directors would have forced a system of checks andlittle is written about mercenaries performing such
balances.acts of courage. Those who perform the greatest
Although no entrepreneur wants to createfeats do it for reasons which hold deeper meaning to
bureaucracy, having some structure in place isthem, not just for money and accolades. Therefore,
essential to a healthy organization. Unfortunately, myan entrepreneur should choose a purpose for his
partners and I thought the primary value of havingbusiness that comes from someplace deep inside of
independent directors was to tap into their businesshim. Unfortunately, that was not something I did.
contacts. We weren't concerned about corporateRather, I was simply trying to make money, so I
governance. Instead, we wanted directors to help uscould "cash out" and move on to something else.
get financing or drum up new business. When itThat's why I believe an entrepreneur with a
became difficult for us to recruit theselong-term dedication will ultimately reap the benefits
"well-connected" people, we gave up looking.of his commitment. The right opportunity will
As founders, we couldn't afford to pay ourselveseventually present itself. The long-term players will
high salaries, so we were financially dependent on theweather the storms and be in better positions to
value of our stock. While our ownership stakes weretake advantage of the new opportunities when the
nearly worthless at the time, we assured ourselvesclouds finally part.
that "equity" was the best motivational tool.5. Emptiness
Unfortunately, being solely dependent on the value ofThere is an interesting poem from the Tao Te Ching
our shares made us more inclined to embrace riskierthat I have come to appreciate since my
strategies. After all, our stock could never be worthexperiences as an entrepreneur. It follows:
less than zero. In that sense, it resembled a "call"With a wall all around
option," so adding volatility to our business was aA clay bowl is molded;
way to boost our equity value.But the use of the bowl
Ultimately, I grew so concerned with protecting myWill depend on the part
ownership that I turned away venture capital. RatherOf the bowl that is void.
than selling a large chunk of my equity, I preferred toCut out windows and doors
embrace a highly leveraged operating strategy. Now,In the house as you build;
I realize that anyone can bet his entire company on aBut the use of the house
risky financing strategy. The real whiz can capitalizeWill depend on the space
his business in a way that doesn't "sink the boat" ifIn the walls that is void.
things take an unexpected turn for the worst.So advantage is had
I also realize that my company's corporate cultureFrom whatever is there;
lacked discipline. My partners and I were generallyBut usefulness arises
unkempt - we showered everyday at the gym andFrom whatever is not.
we slept on the floor of our office. We didn't keep--The Tao Te Ching
regular business hours and we had no plannedLike the poem from the Tao Te Ching,
schedules. As a result, the environment we createdentrepreneurs must see the importance of
lacked professionalism. Unfortunately, our lack ofemptiness, which requires a different way of looking
discipline manifested itself in a negative wayat the world. While emptiness can be uncertainty, it
whenever we faced stressful situations.can also represent opportunity.
Tense arguments between founders would turn intoAs an entrepreneur assembles the pieces of his
screaming matches. We became hotheaded and itbusiness into place, there will inevitably come a time
spread into the way we managed our business. Wewhen the viability of his company is in doubt. New
were prone to knee-jerk reactions and quick changesmarkets are difficult to break into, customer needs
of strategy. Although we viewed our nimbleness as aare always changing, and the threat of new
competitive advantage, we lacked the emotionalcompetition always seems to be lurking about.
intelligence to realize when we were behavingSometimes, it's hard to look into the unknown and
irrationally. Unfortunately, we lacked the balance insee opportunity. It's easy to doubt ourselves and be
our culture to keep us grounded.scared.
As founders, it was our job to mold the company'sAs a 22-year old entrepreneur, I looked into the
values after our own beliefs. Unfortunately, we listedunknown and I saw only two possibilities. I saw the
corporate values in our business plan, but they werepossibility for personal success or failure. Working at
just words on paper. Now I realize that corporatemy desk until the early hours of the morning, my
values are not pieces of PR fluff that companies putmind's eye was able to craft detailed scenarios for
on their websites to appease investors. When theseeach. Either sleeping on the office floor was going to
values are held deeply by managers, they help inbe part of a story I would tell guests on my yacht
making difficult decisions.one day or I was wasting my potential with a
I think of the nationwide Tylenol recall by Johnsonbusiness that would never succeed.
& Johnson whereby 7 people in the ChicagoUnfortunately, I didn't understand there was more an
area died in 1982 because their Extra-Strengthentrepreneur could see in his unknown future if he
Tylenol had been laced with cyanide. J&J made afocused on something other than his "personal
$100 million decision to do a nationwide recall andsuccess." He might also see the opportunity to fight
take its products off the shelves. J&J wantedfor a cause that inspires him, regardless if he wins or
to send a strong message to its stakeholders thatloses. Whether he becomes rich or not, the future
customer safety came before profits. No doubt, itrepresents an opportunity to make a difference in
was a difficult decision, but senior management reliedthe world.
on the company's corporate values to guide themThat's why the true "fire in the belly" of an
through the crisis. At the end of the day, sharedentrepreneur should come from a vision that the
values are a much more reliable way to controlfuture, while uncertain, holds possibilities for each of
behavior in unpredictable situations than are extrinsicus to make an impact on the lives of others. To
controls.have maximum power, our vision shouldn't be just
Undoubtedly, part of the allure of self-employmentabout our own success or failure. It's not about
had been the feeling of freedom from not having apersonal greed. To be truly inspirational, we need to
boss to which I was accountable. However, thesee how our efforts will benefit the lives of others.
reality was that such freedom didn't exist, because IBy sharing that vision, we'll be able to influence those
was still accountable to my stakeholders. I couldn'taround us to join our cause.
just behave however I wanted. Therefore, I needed